... that i shud be mad at you for whut you have done. you said that it is better for us to be apart rather than you keep on hurting me. whut's more painful than this cge nga? it's like hitting me a million times, now that i know who your spoiler is...

... i shud've cursed you and wished that you die for all these dang things your causing me. why did you let 1 year and 8 months passed only to realize that you still love her?

... do i deserve all these? after all the things i have gone through? nde ko sinusumbat but i gave everything i have to you... but still it wasnt enough to make you stay...

... baket mapaglalaba ka nya ng damit mo? mamamasahe ba nya ang likod at batok mo pag masaket yan? kaya ba nyang gumawa ng mas masarap na graham cake at baked macaroni kesa saken? can she withstand taking care of you?

... over and over again i keep on telling myself that i should forget you and move on with my life... after all, you are nothing but a dang lying machine... manipulated me into something for your own gains... why donnie? why?

... i gave you my all... i even loved you more than i love anybody else! i loved you more than i love God! which is the worst thing i ever did... tpos ganito? ganito ang isu2kli mo saken? sana nung nakipag-break ako sayo pumayag ka na... sana habang maaga pa... sana nde mo na lang sinabi saken na nde mo ko iiwan... sana hindi mo na ko pinaniwala na nde mo na xa mahal... sana nung araw na yon na iwanan mo na ko, iniwan mo na ko... eh d sana, nde na nasayang ang effort mo na mag-drama by stabbing yourself with a knife just to convinvce me you still love me... ='(

... did you ever love me donnie? did you ever mean the things you said... konting panahon na lang ang natitira... and i'll be setting you free...

... but then again, i can't blame you... i shud've listened when you told me i'm only bound to get burned...

why do you keep on pushing me away?

it's been 3 weeks now and i don't know what i should feel today...
last night i felt like crying... well, i actually did cry
for certain reasons that's really devastating

woke up this morning with a strange beat of my heart...

something told me to call you up and ask if you can have lunch with me...

i thought you will refuse but you accepted the invitation... thank you...

and you know whut, you still look good as ever...

i really am happy to see you but on the other hand, i'ma bit sad because you're sick

wish i could do something to ease the pain...

i never knew how much i missed you until i saw you earlier...

i'm trying to fight myself not to hold your hands or even hug you...

i miss you so much baby... you don't know how hard this is for me...

i hope you'll change your mind about us watching a movie later...

please... please... please... i just wanna spend some time with you...

just the mere fact that you accept it will bring so much joy to me...

ohhh... how long will i be waiting???



i hope you'd come back in time...

i love you still...


your cherie

today... today... today...

whut happened today?

i woke up feeling a bit ohk

so i opened my PDL and then i uttered a prayer

that if it is His will

the plan will work out today...

and so i went to school and attend my first class...

i patiently waited till the bell rang

and i went straight to Better to ask a friend

how's everything? you doing good?

i hope so... by the way...

i miss you...

me? still, still... still

waiting for God's own time...

you know what, i'm on my 15th day in knowing God's purpose for my life...

thank you... for the gift... i guess God used you and will still use this situation

to carry out the best plan He has made for us...

maybe, maybe, maybe....

maybe, maybe....

things really do happen for a reason...


i get tired too y'know

restless as i always am...

help me Jesus, i need You today!

If I could have one thing, it would always be to please you.
To see you happy, and always keep you glad.
I'd give anything, if only anything I had.
A rose pedal for you, with apparently the thorns for me.
But if it would make you happy, Id see if I could bleed.
Bleed until I'm dry, dryer than your heart I wish to hold.
I only hope my blood doesn't come out being quite as cold.
Something I would like from you, something just ever so so sad.
A grave plot to bury the feelings, that for you I once had.
='* i love you so much

i long to be your friend...

nothing is much sweeter than that...

wala na po akong mapagkakatiwalaan kung nde ikaw lang...

without You...

i'd rather be an empty hollow shell...

fill me with Your presence God


i need You today